So I realized something this afternoon. As I was sitting inside contemplating our lack of plans for New Years Eve and enjoying this lazy, frigid afternoon… I realized that it has been a year. One year ago today was when Joshua and I began to open our hearts and explore the idea of adoption again.
I was actually on call for the hospital last New Years Eve…and from what I remember we had a pretty uneventful day (Joshua was home, and I couldn’t go far in case they needed me to come into work). I think somewhere around 7pm we decided to order a pizza from Marcos…I remember it being cold and maybe rainy when we went to pick up our pizza. And I remember the pizza not being ready when we got there… So we walked hand & hand to the 7/11 next door and got sodas while we waited. And we talked. We talked about 2016 and the heartache we had felt when our embryos did not make it. We talked about the future and wondering what God had planned. We talked about adoption…how it was something that we wanted to pursue again. The time that we had not expected turned into a wonderful memory of hoping & dreaming about the future. That night I remember sitting down and sending emails to a couple of adoption agencies with questions!
A year ago today, we had never heard of Texas Christian Adoptions (the agency we decided to pursue our adoption through) and the wonderful staff there… We had never met the social worker that did our home study this year. We didn’t even know what kind of adoption we were going to pursue or how we were going to find the finances (especially after having just spent a good chunk on our embryo adoption).
It is crazy to think that a year has gone by since that day. It really doesn’t seem like that long ago… We really had no idea what our future held or what our adoption process would look like going forward. But I remember feeling a very established sense of peace and hope that night as I looked toward the future — God knew! His ways are often so very different than mine but they truly are better. ALWAYS better. I am so thankful that my life is secure in His Sovereign Hands.
So, what did 2017 hold for us?
- Joshua was presented with a wonderful opportunity we hadn’t expected and switched career fields from a full time ICU RN to working as part time Pastoral Intern at our church (Countryside Bible Church) while working to obtain his Masters in Divinity through the Masters Seminary distance learning location at our church. (He is able to keep up his ICU RN skills by still working a couple days a month at the hospital!)
- After much research and prayer we began our adoption process through Texas Christian Adoptions
- Erin was able to transition to a part-time Day Surgery RN job in anticipation of the adoption!
- We become officially OPEN to be matched with a child in mid-November. Now we continue to wait on God’s perfect timing!
And this is just a few of the big milestones. We also look back at 2017 and think of fun memories at the beach with the Linscombe family, days spent playing board games with the Scarboroughs, meeting our new little nephew Lee, Easter in Indiana with the Charltons, making pancakes on the kitchen floor on our Roots summer trip (well not the actual floor, but the griddle was sitting on the floor ;)), and many other wonderful days gone by spent with wonderful family and friends. Honestly, we wouldn’t have anticipated much of what happened in 2017…but God knew! It was no surprise to Him.
This makes me think of the sermon from this morning by our guest speaker Paul Twiss taken from Ecclesiastes 3… verse 11 says “He has made everything appropriate in its time….” We cannot control time or the timing of events in life. But God ORDAINS time. God DOES have control. He has not made a mistake or lost control…God’s timing is perfect. ALWAYS perfect.
These are the thoughts that fill my mind and heart as I look to 2018…
I am so thankful for God’s faithful hand through 2017 and can’t wait to see what He has planned for the future as we trust His perfect timing! We hope that 2018 will be the year that a new little one (or two) joins our family. But even if this is not God’s plan for 2018 He is still good and completely in control. I am thankful that we can trust Him!
We continue to be so grateful and overwhelmed by the kindness and support you all have shown towards us as we wait! We thank the Lord for each of you!
May 2018 be a year of growing to become more and more like our great God and Savior, Jesus! Every day He has given us is such a gift.
Joyful in Him,